I had taken about 30 Wellbutrin XL. I instantly regretted it. I have three kids under four. I fell to the floor, got sick, and could not throw up. I was in an ambulance. I began to have seizures, about 25 in eight hours. My body was shutting down. They put me in a drug- induced coma and I was on full life support. They thought I would have a massive heart attack. My family was first told that I had a 20% chance to survive, but I pulled through to 50%.

I was very depressed and barely ate anything for months. I thought that a bottle of sleeping pills would be sufficient to kill me. I took the pills at a supermarket one block from my house. Within minutes I felt disoriented and wondered if I would make it home.

I was on a rafting trip with friends when we came upon heavy rapids. We tried to avoid them, but were sucked into the whirlpool. My raft capsized and I was sucked under the water for about 20 seconds, the first time. I popped out and was then pulled down again for about 30 seconds. I started to panic, fearing death by drowning. I popped out again and was thrown against a rock only to be pulled down again.

In October of 2000, I had a car accident. My vehicle left the roadway on a country road and hit a telephone pole. My injuries resulted in a punctured lung and various broken bones. My head shattered the windshield. The motor was pushed into the car almost touching the seats. People find it hard to believe that anybody came away alive from it. I was the sole occupant. I have no memory of the accident whatsoever except for a glimpse of driving through a town before getting on the rural roads. That was probably about 15 minutes or so before the accident. I have no visual memory but I do remember my mind shouting; "I'm going to die!"