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I had only been married for a few years. We had one beautiful 16-month-old daughter and I was 32 weeks pregnant with our second daughter. It was already a rough marriage. Doing ministry kept us very busy and everyone had an opinion on how we ought to live. No one knew the unrest behind the scenes.
It started with what felt like a bomb going off in my abdomen.
My sister, Kate, had been living with cancer for 10 years prior to this experience. Mid-December 2022, she came to my home on Hospice Care. There were three connected experiences that happened in the time period from 16 December 2022 to 25 January 2023 when Kate left this world.
As I went to the nurse’s station, I watched them gathered together for their daily meeting. They were discussing the cases of patients on the ward and planning the day ahead. I rushed up to them and interrupted the meeting. ‘Please, I need to talk to you, it’s urgent.’ ‘What’s up, Susie?’, said my favourite nurse.
My story may be somewhat different than most; you may see why later. I have a condition called Sleep Apnea. To make a long story short, I toss and turn at night causing my CPAP mask to leak, causing my obstruction to cut off the air to my lungs during sleep, causing me to suffocate in my sleep. This is my theory anyway of what caused my NDE.
The memory of what happened when I was 8 years old was suppressed and briefly revealed at 22 years old and revealed completely in 2010 at 43 years old. I will try to explain the best I can.
I had an experience at 8 or 9 years old where I was attacked by a family member who tried to drown me in the Russian River in Healdsburg, California.
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