I was at a point where I realized my life was not in a good place. I was fed up and angry at myself for making not-beneficial choices. Driving to work one morning while feeling this intense anger, I said to myself, "I'm not going to live this way anymore." Disgust welled up inside of me, and out of the blue I burst into prayer. A passion came from deep within me as words flew out of my mouth demanding change.
I prayed aloud, fiercely saying, “God, you get down here, now, and fix my life or take me home. I have screwed it up, and I can't fix it. I'm done!” I didn't ask G-d to fix my life. I told him to fix it. Little did I know how quickly the divine would respond.
I arrived at work and routinely continued with my day. I had even forgotten all about my morning hissy-fit prayer. Around lunchtime, I decided to go to the bank. Driving there, not three hours after my passionate prayer, a vision began to unfold like a movie in my mind's eye.
It all happened so fast. I saw a white car coming toward me and hit me head-on. I thought, What a strange vision!
Just as the vision faded away, I looked ahead and actually saw a white car coming toward me. It crossed the yellow line.
I knew it was going to hit me head-on. In a second's time, I recall thinking three things simultaneously: “Oh, no! This isn't what I meant,”… “Ah, sh*t, this is gonna hurt,”…and, “Well, I guess my prayer's been answered.”
In that moment, I was positive Source Creator chose to take my life rather than fix it. Then, I panicked and thought, “No, I can't leave my son behind!” My son was the only thing I wanted to live for. Yet, at the same time, I knew whatever was happening was sealed.
I was then drawn to look upward to my left. I saw a huge, brilliant Light Being descending toward me at hyper speed. I knew this being was Archangel Michael.
Michael's energy force pulled me out of my body – and my car. Floating in a vortex of cloud-like, dark, silent space, I could only see a trail of light emanating from Michael's path ahead of me. I was magnetically connected to it. I gently glided upward behind Michael, having no movement or control of my own. I then heard the cars crash behind me. I instantly realized Michael had taken me out of my body long before the crash even took place. I knew the body I left behind felt the impact of the hit, but I felt nothing but perfection.
When I began to turn my head to look at the crash scene, Michael halted me and kept my gaze on him instead. I felt I didn't need to see the crash. At that moment, I realized I was no longer alive on Earth. I felt a heaviness move through me when I realized I had left my son behind. I thought, “No, I can't die. I can't leave him.” Michael then reminded me of the day my son had been electrocuted and that he is always watched over. Understanding that Michael was one of the three angels that had visited my son, I thought, “Okay, then. I'm ready to go.”
I looked forward into Michael's trail of light with awe and was bathed in the illumination. As we went higher, a whitish haze began to appear all around me. It was so silent, peaceful, pure, and complete. There was no emotion, thought, or separation. Telepathic knowing took the place of spoken language, and I was unified with everything, everywhere, completely immersed in love.
As I gazed at Michael ahead of me, the light trail began to expand, and I merged deeper into it. Then I began to hear a faint, angelic, divine sound. It wasn't music, yet it was the most magical symphony of immaculate sound. I remembered knowing that sound. Then, the white haze became thicker, and we picked up speed. As we began to lean toward the right, I saw a piercing, brilliant white light beginning to engulf everything. The bright light exploded as we entered it.
I was then standing inside a whitish space in front of an entryway. Archangel Michael was to my left and Archangel Gabriel was to my right. Neither, by the way, were human-like, nor were they male or female. They were just illuminated beings, both masculine and feminine.
I knew them well, and they knew me perfectly. I sensed this was not the first time we had been together. Michael and Gabriel knew everything about my being, as evidenced when we then exchanged telepathic conversation.
While I don't recall what the angels said to me, I do recall what I said to them. They must have told me I would be going back to Earth because I remember my adamant disagreement stating, “You can’t do that! You can’t bring people here and then send them back to that! It’s just not right!”
Then they both spoke something to me, and whatever they said led me to look ahead, into the entryway. The entry was dark. As I slightly recalled humans being afraid of the dark, I thought, “Um, that's pretty dark in there,” and questioned if they were going to send me in there. I curiously peered into the void of nothingness.
Then, I and the entire space felt something compelling coming forth. I began to feel the space itself morphing into ‘something.’ It sounded and moved like gentle water approaching. Then the waves began to shape into an illuminated fluid-Being.
As the Being approached the entryway where I stood, I and everything became silent, glowing and awe-filled. I knew this Being was All Perfection, Creator, God, the Holy Spirit, the Father, Source of ALL things ever created, and it held the existence of ALL beings and things within its existence.
I then understood why its entryway looked dark. The light inside was so bright and blinding, it appeared black, just like when we look at the sun and everything turns black afterward. My human-defined perception of darkness was erased from me.
I recalled I had been with Creator before and knew of its ever-changing omnipresence and how Creator manifests its existence in endless ways. At that point I was directed to refer to this Being appropriately, as The Nameless “Source" and not by the name “God," and I understood why. The word and entity, “God,” was manufactured by humankind, after Creator and Creation, and manifests separateness from Creator, Source of All.
I was overcome with its indescribable awe, opened my arms wide, kneeled, and bowed before Creator, in pure unadulterated honor. Then, Source sent through me what I can only describe as a loving smile and spoke, "Nay, stand, stand. All are equal,” and simultaneously, Source lifted me up into an upright standing position, directly facing its presence. (I say ‘It’ instead of ‘he’ or ‘she,’ because I knew referring to Source as a human, male, female, or a name, degrades and adulterates Creator’s awe and divine perfection.)
My communication with Source, Michael, and Gabriel was what we define as telepathic, but that doesn’t even describe the all-encompassing knowing to the fullest. While communication with Michael and Gabriel felt more physical, the communication with Creator was a more-easily-accessible ‘divine language’ – my whole being was one with Creator’s language and my Soul knew and understood everything.
I recalled Creator, this indescribable magnificent Being, had dealt with me before at this very entryway, yet in a different way. I knew everything and also nothing at the same time. I, of course, was no longer feisty. Now, I expressed my desire to stay in the afterlife in sacred awe, as love, which there are no words or definitions to describe.
Upon my request to stay with them, Source’s fluid presence began to move closer toward me. As it did, slow motion took hold, and I began to sense a water’s wave of a spinning motion encircling me. There was a deafening silence, yet I could hear the heavenly ‘music,’ echoing everywhere and within me. Source then spoke through me and filled me up with what I could only call the mystery of wisdom. Source stretched out what could only be described in human terms as illuminated arms, and in a timeless moment of being bathed in love, I thought, “Oh, good, Creator is going to hug me and let me stay.”
I watched in awe as Creator’s illuminated waters reached toward my chest. Then a brilliant, blinding flash of light exploded, and I flung backward, stretching out my arms, saying, “No!"
I was then being enveloped in a white hazy cloud. At first I thought Creator sent me to another place in the afterlife because I still felt I was a spirit body. I then realized I was sitting inside my vehicle, and the white haze was simply the contents of my car's airbag.
Still not believing Source sent me back, I began to question whether I was alive or dead. I felt like I was dead, or at least a spirit, still floating in heaven. I thought maybe Creator sent me back as a spirit guide, and that I was just invisibly hovering in the car. I could still feel Archangel Michael nearby helping me ground and understand, so I just waited. Then, when a friend stopped to help me get out of my car, I knew I was back in the body. I sat there for a few moments just shaking my head, completely stunned they had sent me back. But I felt so perfect and couldn't give thought to anything less than that.
Michael then sent his wisdom through me, confirming that we four were synchronized. I knew right then, neither I, nor my life, would ever be the same. And it wasn’t.
It didn’t stop there. I was compelled to experience many things out of the norm, to follow the guidance of the invisible world, and as the days and years progressed, to see the emergence of my soul-self and my sacred relationship with the infinite divine presence.
As time passed, I began to recognize an endless trail of mysterious changes to my intelligence, extra-sensory abilities and overall personality. Everything I was and did in my prior life changed. I was held in the grips of spirit transforming everything about me and my life, but it was easily received because I felt like a pure, innocent 5-year-old child seeing life with untainted eyes. I had not a care in the world. I saw nothing as wrong, broken, or damaged and that everything had a divine lining. Comically, this state earned me the nickname, "Glossy." I had a knack for understanding the divine language in everything.
I have spent the past 19 years communicating divine linguistics, prophetic messages, and understandings of the origins beyond, which compelled me to write 9 books on self-empowerment, self-help, and spiritual ascension. Having the near-death, out-of-body, other-worldly experiences continues. I was led to write my book, "Life Beyond Us," and I am currently starting a second book, with more, including my three most recent NDE's – that’s how much awe, love and magic Spirit wants us to receive! Ha, ha!
Creator did take me home AND fixed my life. Not only am I beyond grateful my sassy prayer was answered, I enjoy the loving reminder of my precious, divine reunion with Creator, Michael, and Gabriel every day, by a scar imprinted on my forearm. It is in the shape of Archangel Michael, flying upward, bringing me into the light, exactly as I experienced.