My experience took place more than 50 years ago when I was 5, and from then on I have wondered, WHY I had experienced this. Maybe it happened to comfort me in a stressful time.

I was a happy child at home with my family, but as I went to kindergarten, I met children who were really mean and cruel. They for example laughed at a child from a foreign country just because of her name and I could deeply feel the pain of this girl. I was so sad that I couldn`t do anything about it and sometimes in the evening I lay in bed and cried and wondered why I was here on Earth. We were not very religious, but my Mum had said a little prayer every evening with me and in that time, I started praying in a very natural way all by myself to God and Jesus.

And then one night I had my experience. I don`t remember a tunnel or anything like this. The first thing I remember is that I entered an unearthly realm in a yellow-golden light. I could see soft hills that stretched out to eternity, as it seemed. I didn`t see trees or people.

Suddenly three beings of light appeared. They looked like silhouettes and had kind of long dresses on. I didn`t see clear faces and didn`t know who they were, but obviously they knew me and greeted me very heartily. They didn`t walk, but “floated” towards me and told me by mind / thought to accompany them. So I floated with them and it seemed quite natural to me. I wasn`t even very astonished about this or afraid.

They showed me various places and I received a lot of information. I had a lot of questions as a child and here in this realm I got the answer to each question in the very moment I just thought it! I received answers about the universe, how and why everything existed, why there is good and bad and so on, but unfortunately, I wasn`t able or allowed to take this knowledge with me.

Everything was full of energy and alive; I even could see the vibrating energy. And I remember standing in front of a gigantic "wall" which had an infinite number of "drawers" and I was told that all knowledge that exists was stored in here. This place was so filled with energy that to me it seemed like yellow and red fire or flames, but it didn`t hurt. It was amazing! Then finally we arrived in a landscape that looked like a meadow with plants and animals almost like on Earth, but more colourful and alive.

I saw a herd of sheep and a man among them came towards me and I recognized him as Jesus. In contrast to the beings of light, he looked like a human and I could clearly see his face. I was so in awe that I got down on my "knees". I was 5 years old and besides having been baptized, I didn´t attend any service in church and religion didn`t play a large role in our family. But it seemed to me at that moment that my soul was quite “old” and remembered this place. I really felt at home and all that happened felt completely natural to me. I wanted to stay in this beautiful place.

Jesus lifted me up and “told” me by thought / telepathically, that I should go back to Earth. I was shown how sad my parents would be if I stayed with him, but at that moment I just thought this wouldn`t matter that much because they would attend me in this place “soon” after (time seemed to play no role at all!). Jesus seemed to smile and was very patient and kind with me. He led me to a place, where I could see kind of a large glass on the “ground” that looked a bit like a tv-screen and told me to look down. I could see the Earth from above, not only at that moment, but I could see the future.

I saw the rainforest being destroyed, storms and fire and much more and also some pictures of my personal future life (my profession as a psychologist working with children, some persons that would be very important to me, such as the man I fell in love with many years later and even his house near a wood). Jesus told me that I would be able to easily get in contact with animals and care about them and that I could take part in protecting the environment. He “said” something that I similarly read in the bible years later: “Whatever you do to the least of my brothers and sisters, you do to me.” In the bible this is referred to humans, but at that moment I referred this to the small animals.

I still didn`t want to leave this place and him, but then he looked at me and until today I remember his eyes and even more the kindness and love that he expressed through them. I wasn`t forced to go back, but he looked at me in such a pure way with infinite goodness and kindness (in Germany we call it “Güte”) that I was totally ashamed to even have hesitated to go back to Earth to fulfill my task or purpose. At the moment that I felt this shame I agreed inside and in the very instant with a great “whoosh” I kind of “fell” down through space back to Earth and into in my body. I saw planets and the darkness of the outer space and then the Earth from above and it looked like a toy landscape. At that moment I had the feeling that life on Earth is like a theatre play in which everyone has to play his part, but which isn`t real at all.

In my experience all my senses were sharpened very much and I was highly awake and got the answer to every question I just thought about. Nothing was left unclear. There were no lies, not even misunderstandings.

I tried to tell my parents about this, but I couldn`t say a word. It was too overwhelming and holy to me. I was so full of joy in the days, weeks and months after this that I sang all day long, even on the streets, although I was quite shy.

Strangely this experience seemed to get more into the back of my memory as I went to school and university and only sometimes shone through. But in the last years it came back and helped me to get through some tough times in business and private. I had been on the wrong path and hadn`t realized it. Remembering my experience helped me to understand and to find my purpose and now I work as a psychologist in my own practice, especially with children. It is just the way I was shown in my experience, although as a child I didn`t even know what a psychologist was and later on had completely "forgotten" about this.

I am a very sensitive person and this really helps me to do my work. Sometimes I just "know" which problem a child or adult has and how I can help them. I read a lot about similar experiences in order to understand all this more and came to the conclusion, that my experience probably was an STE, not an NDE, which I for the lack of a better term had thought for a long time.

Later on, I had other experiences like dreaming future events, hearing the voice of my deceased aunt calling my name, and some trouble with electric devices when I touched them. I understood the power of prayers and many of my whishes came true, when I prayed with all my heart for them to be fulfilled. For 50 years I have kept my experience in my heart, but now I feel that I should tell others about it. May it be another piece of the great puzzle that all the experiencers and all the scientists are putting together right now in this exciting time!