:As I tried to read a prayer one day, 

my boyfriend said in a slow, deliberate and vicious tone, Get that s___ out of my face. I knew he meant forever, and that nothing I did would ever lead him to the spiritual Light that I knew.

My heart broke (in hindsight, I realized I had stopped loving him at that moment). Before that day I always gazed into his eyes with love, but I never looked into his eyes again after that... except in anger or indignation. He had been abusive to me right from our first real date - telling me nobody else could love me, the only friends I had were there because they had to be, that nobody, even my friends, truly liked me.

That night I went to bed as usual, feeling lost, worthless, and helpless. I thought I might as well commit suicide, since I would never be loved, and never be in a happy, normal, fulfilling relationship.

At some point during the night I came to awareness to see that I standing on another planet. I looked up to see that a huge planet took up most of the sky, and it had rings like Saturn. I could also see a small moon. I knew for certain I was not dreaming, and that I was far from my own galaxy. What I saw and felt there was far more real than anything I ever experienced while dreaming or while awake.

I was on a beach in front of an ocean. It was exactly like an ocean in every way, except each wave was transparent - and each one was a different, deep jewel-like color. There were colors in that sea that I had never seen before. The Sea of Light was rolling and crashing on the beach, wave after wave. The sand was made up of pebbles and particles of real gold. The waves, taken together, created a heavenly orchestration that is indescribable.

I could hear tones and instruments that I knew did not exist on earth. It was like the music was not only 3D, but 4D. I experienced the colors and music in ways I cannot describe... I WAS the colors and music in every atom of my being.

As my spirit stood there in a kind of peaceful, encompassing awe, a Being approached me from behind, placed His hands on my shoulders and said simply, "Verily, We are well-pleased with thee." I knew at once it was 'Abdul-Baha.

Hearing those words was profound for me at that moment in my life. It was 1987, and I had been considering suicide because I was unlovable. I had suicidal thoughts from a very early age due to many years of childhood and adult abuse, but this was the 2nd time I had made a halfway concrete plan.

It wasn't just being abused that brought me to this condition... I believe I was emotionally unstable at that time also because I was getting up at 5 a.m. to go to work every day. I didn't know until many years later that I had a severe sleep disorder called delayed-REM, where I would not start REM sleep until around 6:30 a.m. So I was having REM sleep only on the weekend for several months around that time.

When I woke up after the OOB, I was in shock thinking "How in the world can God be pleased with me?!" I was living with my boyfriend when it was against my religious beliefs, and I wasn't attending regularly.

It took me 2 more years to realize he was an alcoholic, but I finally left that man after he became abusive toward my daughter. He has no idea what he lost. Many years later I married a man who loves me without conditions. My husband, a professional artist, painted the scene from my dream for me, and I wish I could share it here!

My sleep disorder is successfully treated with a Binaural Beats recording, which plays all night through my Sleepphones. I can't say I never thought of suicide again... it was a constant until 2009 when I underwent Inner Spirit Therapy. It was amazing to wake up one day not thinking of dying, and I have had only a few short moments like that since. I have had several other OOB / NDE experiences, which I also submitted here.

I sometimes think I created the place I experienced in this OOB.

 An OOB Experience with Excellent Timing

Today is July 15, 2016. This is one of my OOB / NDE experiences, which took place in 1987:

As I tried to read a prayer one day, my boyfriend said in a slow, deliberate and vicious tone, Get that s___ out of my face. I knew he meant forever, and that nothing I did would ever lead him to the spiritual Light that I knew.

My heart broke (in hindsight, I realized I had stopped loving him at that moment). Before that day I always gazed into his eyes with love, but I never looked into his eyes again after that... except in anger or indignation. He had been abusive to me right from our first real date - telling me nobody else could love me, the only friends I had were there because they had to be, that nobody, even my friends, truly liked me.

That night I went to bed as usual, feeling lost, worthless, and helpless. I thought I might as well commit suicide, since I would never be loved, and never be in a happy, normal, fulfilling relationship.

At some point during the night I came to awareness to see that I standing on another planet. I looked up to see that a huge planet took up most of the sky, and it had rings like Saturn. I could also see a small moon. I knew for certain I was not dreaming, and that I was far from my own galaxy. What I saw and felt there was far more real than anything I ever experienced while dreaming or while awake.

I was on a beach in front of an ocean. It was exactly like an ocean in every way, except each wave was transparent - and each one was a different, deep jewel-like color. There were colors in that sea that I had never seen before. The Sea of Light was rolling and crashing on the beach, wave after wave. The sand was made up of pebbles and particles of real gold. The waves, taken together, created a heavenly orchestration that is indescribable.

I could hear tones and instruments that I knew did not exist on earth. It was like the music was not only 3D, but 4D. I experienced the colors and music in ways I cannot describe... I WAS the colors and music in every atom of my being.

As my spirit stood there in a kind of peaceful, encompassing awe, a Being approached me from behind, placed His hands on my shoulders and said simply, "Verily, We are well-pleased with thee." I knew at once it was 'Abdul-Baha.

Hearing those words was profound for me at that moment in my life. It was 1987, and I had been considering suicide because I was unlovable. I had suicidal thoughts from a very early age due to many years of childhood and adult abuse, but this was the 2nd time I had made a halfway concrete plan.

It wasn't just being abused that brought me to this condition... I believe I was emotionally unstable at that time also because I was getting up at 5 a.m. to go to work every day. I didn't know until many years later that I had a severe sleep disorder called delayed-REM, where I would not start REM sleep until around 6:30 a.m. So I was having REM sleep only on the weekend for several months around that time.

When I woke up after the OOB, I was in shock thinking "How in the world can God be pleased with me?!" I was living with my boyfriend when it was against my religious beliefs, and I wasn't attending regularly.

It took me 2 more years to realize he was an alcoholic, but I finally left that man after he became abusive toward my daughter. He has no idea what he lost. Many years later I married a man who loves me without conditions. My husband, a professional artist, painted the scene from my dream for me, and I wish I could share it here!

My sleep disorder is successfully treated with a Binaural Beats recording, which plays all night through my Sleepphones. I can't say I never thought of suicide again... it was a constant until 2009 when I underwent Inner Spirit Therapy. It was amazing to wake up one day not thinking of dying, and I have had only a few short moments like that since. I have had several other OOB / NDE experiences, which I also submitted here.

I sometimes think I created the place I experienced in this OOB.

 An OOB Experience with Excellent Timing

Today is July 15, 2016. This is one of my OOB / NDE experiences, which took place in 1987:

As I tried to read a prayer one day, my boyfriend said in a slow, deliberate and vicious tone, Get that s___ out of my face. I knew he meant forever, and that nothing I did would ever lead him to the spiritual Light that I knew.

My heart broke (in hindsight, I realized I had stopped loving him at that moment). Before that day I always gazed into his eyes with love, but I never looked into his eyes again after that... except in anger or indignation. He had been abusive to me right from our first real date - telling me nobody else could love me, the only friends I had were there because they had to be, that nobody, even my friends, truly liked me.

That night I went to bed as usual, feeling lost, worthless, and helpless. I thought I might as well commit suicide, since I would never be loved, and never be in a happy, normal, fulfilling relationship.

At some point during the night I came to awareness to see that I standing on another planet. I looked up to see that a huge planet took up most of the sky, and it had rings like Saturn. I could also see a small moon. I knew for certain I was not dreaming, and that I was far from my own galaxy. What I saw and felt there was far more real than anything I ever experienced while dreaming or while awake.

I was on a beach in front of an ocean. It was exactly like an ocean in every way, except each wave was transparent - and each one was a different, deep jewel-like color. There were colors in that sea that I had never seen before. The Sea of Light was rolling and crashing on the beach, wave after wave. The sand was made up of pebbles and particles of real gold. The waves, taken together, created a heavenly orchestration that is indescribable.

I could hear tones and instruments that I knew did not exist on earth. It was like the music was not only 3D, but 4D. I experienced the colors and music in ways I cannot describe... I WAS the colors and music in every atom of my being.

As my spirit stood there in a kind of peaceful, encompassing awe, a Being approached me from behind, placed His hands on my shoulders and said simply, "Verily, We are well-pleased with thee." I knew at once it was 'Abdul-Baha.

Hearing those words was profound for me at that moment in my life. It was 1987, and I had been considering suicide because I was unlovable. I had suicidal thoughts from a very early age due to many years of childhood and adult abuse, but this was the 2nd time I had made a halfway concrete plan.

It wasn't just being abused that brought me to this condition. I believe I was emotionally unstable at that time also because I was getting up at 5 a.m. to go to work every day. I didn't know until many years later that I had a severe sleep disorder called delayed-REM, where I would not start REM sleep until around 6:30 a.m. So I was having REM sleep only on the weekend for several months around that time.

When I woke up after the OOB, I was in shock thinking "How in the world can God be pleased with me?!" I was living with my boyfriend when it was against my religious beliefs, and I wasn't attending regularly.

It took me 2 more years to realize he was an alcoholic, but I finally left that man after he became abusive toward my daughter. He has no idea what he lost. Many years later I married a man who loves me without conditions. My husband, a professional artist, painted the scene from my dream for me, and I wish I could share it here!

My sleep disorder is successfully treated with a Binaural Beats recording, which plays all night through my Sleepphones. I can't say I never thought of suicide again... it was a constant until 2009 when I underwent Inner Spirit Therapy. It was amazing to wake up one day not thinking of dying, and I have had only a few short moments like that since. I have had several other OOB / NDE experiences, which I also submitted here.

I sometimes think I created the place I experienced in this OOB.

 An OOB Experience with Excellent Timing

Today is July 15, 2016. This is one of my OOB / NDE experiences, which took place in 1987:

As I tried to read a prayer one day, my boyfriend said in a slow, deliberate and vicious tone, Get that s___ out of my face. I knew he meant forever, and that nothing I did would ever lead him to the spiritual Light that I knew.

My heart broke (in hindsight, I realized I had stopped loving him at that moment). Before that day I always gazed into his eyes with love, but I never looked into his eyes again after that... except in anger or indignation. He had been abusive to me right from our first real date - telling me nobody else could love me, the only friends I had were there because they had to be, that nobody, even my friends, truly liked me.

That night I went to bed as usual, feeling lost, worthless, and helpless. I thought I might as well commit suicide, since I would never be loved, and never be in a happy, normal, fulfilling relationship.

At some point during the night I came to awareness to see that I standing on another planet. I looked up to see that a huge planet took up most of the sky, and it had rings like Saturn. I could also see a small moon. I knew for certain I was not dreaming, and that I was far from my own galaxy. What I saw and felt there was far more real than anything I ever experienced while dreaming or while awake.

I was on a beach in front of an ocean. It was exactly like an ocean in every way, except each wave was transparent - and each one was a different, deep jewel-like color. There were colors in that sea that I had never seen before. The Sea of Light was rolling and crashing on the beach, wave after wave. The sand was made up of pebbles and particles of real gold. The waves, taken together, created a heavenly orchestration that is indescribable.

I could hear tones and instruments that I knew did not exist on earth. It was like the music was not only 3D, but 4D. I experienced the colors and music in ways I cannot describe... I WAS the colors and music in every atom of my being.

As my spirit stood there in a kind of peaceful, encompassing awe, a Being approached me from behind, placed His hands on my shoulders and said simply, "Verily, We are well-pleased with thee." I knew at once it was 'Abdul-Baha.

Hearing those words was profound for me at that moment in my life. It was 1987, and I had been considering suicide because I was unlovable. I had suicidal thoughts from a very early age due to many years of childhood and adult abuse, but this was the 2nd time I had made a halfway concrete plan.

It wasn't just being abused that brought me to this condition. I believe I was emotionally unstable at that time also because I was getting up at 5 a.m. to go to work every day. I didn't know until many years later that I had a severe sleep disorder called delayed-REM, where I would not start REM sleep until around 6:30 a.m. So I was having REM sleep only on the weekend for several months around that time.

When I woke up after the OOB, I was in shock thinking "How in the world can God be pleased with me?!" I was living with my boyfriend when it was against my religious beliefs, and I wasn't attending regularly.

It took me 2 more years to realize he was an alcoholic, but I finally left that man after he became abusive toward my daughter. He has no idea what he lost. Many years later I married a man who loves me without conditions. My husband, a professional artist, painted the scene from my dream for me, and I wish I could share it here!

My sleep disorder is successfully treated with a Binaural Beats recording, which plays all night through my Sleepphones. I can't say I never thought of suicide again. it was a constant until 2009 when I underwent Inner Spirit Therapy. It was amazing to wake up one day not thinking of dying, and I have had only a few short moments like that since. I have had several other OOB / NDE experiences, which I also submitted here.

I sometimes think I created the place I experienced in this OOB.